Unheard Goodbyes.

I wish that I could spread my arms so wide
That I could wrap them around everyone I've ever known and loved
Protect them from the crashing waves
The storms that will take us all one at a time
The unheard goodbyes that we are never ready to whisper

 

 I miss you so much. We didn't always get along at first. We had our bumps in the road. But you were the one who was there for me during what I thought was the hardest part of my life. You stood you're ground when I was being ridiculous and negative and picked me back up when no one else could. You are the strongest person I have ever met. I can't believe you are gone. That you will never come visit me in Florida again. No more beach trips, no more browsing all the house magazines dreaming of what many vacation houses we would own, no more just sitting out on my patio talking aimlessly for hours and hours about everything and nothing. Telling me all your stories, all the wonderful things you have done, places you have seen. No more trips to the NEX to see what new Navy gear they have on pay days. For the last 6 years, I have been honored to have you in my life. You will forever have a place in my heart. I don't know what I'm going to do without you here. You always knew just what to say during any tricky situation I was in. No matter what it was. I wish this wasn't happening. I know it's selfish of me, but I wish you were still here. I don't want to believe you're gone. It's not fair. Why you? Why now? I know that you deserve to not be in pain, and to not suffer. And I'm happy you're not suffering or hurting anymore. I'm just selfish and I miss you already and I don't know what I'm going to do without you around for the rest of my life. For my little families life. This is the hardest part of my life. Living without you in it.  

 

 

Rest In Peace, my hero, my second mom, my mother in law. Karen Roach. I love you.