Saturday, January 16, 2010

Going back to what I love

As of Friday at 5:45pm I am no longer a working momma!! I get to go back to my dream job. Staying home with my kids and taking care of my husband. It honestly couldn't have happened at a better time. With the tragedy going on in Haiti, they are considering sending my husbands squadron. Which would mean that we have a couple weeks left now and then a couple weeks right before he deploys. Had I continued with my job, I would barely have had any time with what we potentially are working with.

I love being home with my kids all day. Sure, there are times when I want them to just leave me alone. They don't always listen, the house doesn't stay clean, laundry doesn't stay away. There's always the little irritants through the course of the day. But the bigger picture is what is most important. I get to watch every minute of my childrens life; from Keegan getting better at his walking to Kaley learning a new word or reading a new book. Those things are what makes my life complete.

I LOVE my family. I LOVE being able to be home with them. Granted money will be tight and it hasn't been since I've been working, but we always make it through the rough patches. It doesn't matter to me that I won't be able to go out to the bars on the weekends, or go blow $100 buying new clothes because we have the extra money after everything else. Those are all things that I can live without and not care about. A person can always go shopping, but they can't always watch their children grow or be perfectly happy being with mommy all day. I don't know what I would do if I missed some of the important milestones in my childrens lives.
To be quite honest, I was so jealous when I was working of mothers that got to stay home with their kids. Even though it wasn't too long ago that I was doing the same. I really missed it. I have dreams and goals that I want to achieve. I am not settling for what is "comfortable". And I certainly am not making my kids go without, they always have what they need or want.

With the possibility of my husband leaving for pretty much the majority of this year, I really want to devote all my time to being with him and our kids. I feel really sad that he is going to be missing out on so much in the kids lives. Though we did get an amazing video camera from my in laws for Christmas, I will definitely be devoting lots of time to filming my kids while he is gone. I am buying myself a new camera with our tax return as well. I realized that my love for photography has come out so much since I had kids.